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| Mightier than the waves of the sea is His Love for you. |
It's been over a year since I last decided to sit down and write. So much has gone on over the past year, as it always goes, and it's crazy to think how far I've come. In certain ways I've stayed the same, but in other ways I can clearly see how I've grown and changed. I'm here to tell you a little about that growth, if you're interested. Come along, come along.
In this past year I feel as if I have been put through a fire. People have come into my life, people have been removed from my life, my dreams and desires have completely changed, and through it all I am growing more and more into who God has intended me to be all along.
It's been hard. Heart-break is hard. New responsibilities are overwhelming. I thought for sure that my life was going in one steady direction and in the span of a few months, it all just kind of slipped away and changed. It was sad and it was confusing. It was easily one of the hardest periods in my young life. My Christian faith told me to trust The Lord, trust His will, and to trust that He's working all things out for my good. That was all very, very hard to swallow. I felt like whatever future I imagined, whatever plans I had, and almost everything I had been concerned about for years had been pulled out from under my feet. I fell and I broke. I remember sitting in my room one night and just crying harder than I ever had before, or at least in a long time. It was strange. I came to the end of my rope and felt complete brokenness.
Psalm 40: 1-2 says:
I waited patiently for The Lord; He inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure.I have been lifted up.
It's amazing when people rally around you in times of need. It's amazing that God placed old and new friends in my life at the exact moments when I needed them the most. It's amazing how an open invitation to share what's going on in your life can bring so much healing to your heart. God uses His people to lift others up and I experienced that in a most real way.
I don't know how patient I am for The Lord. It's really hard for me to wait on The Lord and listen to what He is speaking to me, but I fully believe that he inclined to me and heard my cry. He set my feet upon a rock. He is making my steps secure. It's absolutely beautiful how God healed my heart, my soul, and my mind and is now calling me to love Him with those three things, no matter how broken or messed up I may think they are. If I've learned anything in my walk with The Lord it's that He doesn't call us to be perfect. Goodness knows I've been around the block when it comes to messy relationships, words I wish I could take back, and wicked thoughts. God has taught me to follow Him as best as I can. When I fall, He calls me to pick up the broken pieces, dust myself off, not be afraid to ask for help, and continue the beautiful journey.
Romans 8: 38-39 says:
I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the Love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.I cling to this. This verse comes across my mind multiple times a day and I am reminded of the love that God has for me no matter the brokenness that exists in me. There is nothing that can take us away from the love that God has for us. He has lifted us up from wherever we've been and whatever we've done and now He calls us to love Him and love His people, however that may look.
I sit here today in awe of the Grace and Love that has been shown to me by God. I am thankful for all that I have and all that I am. I am excited for what's ahead. I am aware of everything I've been through and I am doing my best to pick up the pieces that remain. All the while I hear The Lord saying, "C'mon. Let's keep going. I love you and it's gonna be okay. I never said it would be easy, but I did promise I'd never leave you. It'll be alright."